hum.

» i want nothing more to go out; i need to stay in. im terribly hungry and nothing sounds good at all.
i want to find people that i am unhappy with and sit in the same room with them and forget why i am unhappy with them.
i want to go dancing, im sure i dont have enough energy. i say [timidly] that i want to write and this week when i was writing i fell apart. i must do some [more] homework, but ive done homework all week. going home would be nice, but i want some friends too.
theres more; i cant think of it.

in short, i dont know what i want.

» 'I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?'

» "im restless and, you know, bored."
"well, we could buy wood and leave. get it? buy wood and leaves. hahahaha."

» i know youve prepared charts and graphs, and a lecture, on why you had to leave,
but i dont want to hear it right now.
you cant tell me the good didnt happen. it did. i cant tell you the bad didnt happen. it did. funny
thing is, we're both right.
[thank you for coming. you forgot my peaches, but you can bring them tomorrow, mmmkay? you
promised, you know.] it could have been worse, thankfully. it bordered on worse at a few
moments. if it had been worse, i think i would have just cried. but it wasnt. "hinging on maybe"
is close to it, i think.
its funny how when you just need something, you resort to the familiar. then again, i am a sentimental, not to mention a traditional, person.

» i cant be a writer when i grow up: writing took a lot out of me. i think im sick. fortunately, im that kind of sick where my voice is all low and cool sounding. my roommate called me--in such a condition--a "sexy kitten." it was rather funny, but i couldnt even laugh cause of the no voice business. and im not even sure if thats an insult or a compliment.

» i think i decided that i miss how things were. and im almost sure i dont want it back, but still.
hum.

Currently Watching: Benny & Joon

Posted 4/16/2005 8:45 PM