leap year.

well. here goes.
i have one semi-writer acquaintance who says that her head just goes crazy when she doesnt write, or somesuch. maybe thats the trouble with me lately. i think i have had a lot of extra words lately, and maybe my poor husband would appreciate not being the one who gets to hear ALL of them. and generally when he's just about ready to go to sleep. our schedules are a little off, apparently.

__________ ridiculously enough, paragraphs below are actually inspired by the movie "leap year" which im currently watching with some of the aforementioned favorite people. and yep, leap year is actually quite a romantic day and wonderful, i think. the movie? "not quite so damn romantic." but not terrible, either. ____________

boy, last night when i felt like blogging i had a bunch of things all planned out that ought to be said! but of course, now i can't think of them. look what a measly 20 hours does to me.
tonight i was sitting with some of my people that i love and we were having such a nice time. more than one of them could testify about my talking in my sleep; isnt that strange. i wonder if rosie will inherit that. its so funny the things that i am passing onto/teaching rosie already, and i feel like its super pressurey. i also can't believe the things/how much that she is learning already; in the last several weeks shes started to saying all kinds of things, and its so great. her little voice is so cute. loooooveeee.

also, we bought a house, did i tell you that? we bought it for, like, ever ago. or at least nine months ago. it was a short sale and it needed a decent little bit of work. jed has already accomplished the biggest piece of it: putting in heat, which has been so nice all winter--we have radiators and then you get cold enough, you just go sit right on top of one of them. or put your towel on top of it when youre in the shower. thats happy. i have a to-do list a mile long for the house still, and so does jed, but, unfortunately, they are a little different. also unfortunately, his probably really are more important to get to first. jed has a good head on his shoulders. which he would forget if it werent attached. but attached it is, so we're in good shape.

this is hard. i am terrible at cultivating habits, did you know? madison (whose idea this was) just told me...um...i forgot. oh. remembered. she just told me that i need to reintroduce the 300 words a day habit. but how caaannnn iiii?

oh, i remembered somethign i did this week. i sewed some pillows. that was kindof new-ish, but they turned out. also, i'm crocheting a stash-buster, retrofabulous nice big afghan. its coming along kindof slowly, (my fingers are out of shape, apparently) but i think it'll be awesome when its done, and im kindof motovated to finish, actually, unlike most of my projects. usually im just a good starter.

one time, i went sqare dancing, did i tell you? it was my FAVORITE. EVER. i loved it so much! it was so fun, and such good exercise. and i want to do it everyday. alas. thats just not exactly practical. why does practicality win so often? that is one of the major problems in life.

here is the verse i am trying to memorize right now. because i think that actually, if i don't get a little non-practical in my life, i can actually get quite dispaired. and dreary, daily, everyday-ness is amazingly wearing on ones soul, no? we were talking tonight about whose job is hardest (teaching, student-ing, mothering, desk-ing, being a (sweet) baby). its all so draining. and we have to work so hard for each little bit of intimancy, communion, delight (although, now, with rosie, delight comes a little more easily). my verse of late says "i would have dispaired if i did not believe i would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living." and while i've been studying isaiah, there are many promises of fresh-ness, new joy, streams of water in the desert. i am ready for that. how to get it, im less sure. such a conundrum. is conundrum the right word? i can't keep track of things like that. moreover, i seriously think i'm kindof loosing my grasp on the english language. a ton of times now, im talking to jed and im like "blahblah...you know that one thing...its like tall, and it has leaves and stuff...what is that?..." and hes like "a tree?" and i'm like oh yeah! a tree! its weird.

i wonder if that will go away sometime, like if i ever get more sleep sometime?
i wonder if i will feel a little less crazy now? maybe feeling crazy is a good thing? not sure. today, also, i watched a funny youtube tutorial about how to disco. i think they left out some parts, not sure-not a disco expert-, but its way harder than i thought. it was crazy.

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thats what i really think about that.