Wednesday, December 22, 2004

i am not a cryer. i usually dont cry about that many things.
[but first of all, i seem to be crying a lot lately. not alotalot but enough. more than usual.]
and christmas music makes me cry. or at least tear up. actually come to think of it that sort of music in general does. the symphony or choir performences or anything like that. and it has ever since i was little. i dont know why. for goodness sakes, i was running the powerpoint this time for our christmas program and telling my sister not to give me bunny ears and that they couldnt all go to the bathroom at once and i was still teary.
maybe its just the overflow of everything else that seems to be out of place this year [?].
[really, one ought to have waterproof mascara anyway. and i cant seem to remember that when i buy mascara. its hard to look good in front of Jesus or anyone else if your mascara is everywhere, because getting everywhere is what happens to mascara when you cry.]
but i suppose it is a comfort that ages and ages ago, He cried about stupid things too--things like eating and whatever other stupid things that babies cry about. He probably cried about the angel music too, cause it woke him up. and then i bet mary was mad at those angels. [this is very beside the point, but i really want to know: half the songs say things about "silent nights" and then other half of the songs say things about "glorious mornings." now my theory is that he was actually born at about 430ish in the morning so that they could say both of those things, but is that theory right? and if he was born at night...it probably wasnt silent. and if he was born in the morning, a few people probably didnt think it was glorious for a while. and if he had to have been born silently at night, would he have been born loudly during the day? i am curious about these things.]
but anyway, the point is that i want some waterproof mascara for christmas. [acutally, i want to not need any waterproof mascara, but whatever.] and the other point is that i shouldnt get any, cause no one ever said that you have to look good or have it all together to have christmas. Jesus didnt look good, or smell good i bet and he still had christmas. heck, He was christmas. and im not even sure mascara was invented back then, and even if it was, it wouldnt have mattered. cause boys always seem to have the good eyelashes anyway. and since Jesus could arrange what sort of eyelashes he had, he probably made them nice. hum.
Posted 12/22/2004 11:10 PM