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lots lots of things in my head. lots lots more things that should be in my head that arent there yet.
had the super-funnest time twice this weekend. have a super-lot more finals to take [3 seems like a lot more] and a super-lot to pack. i am not good at packing.
i think im sick, but im not sure, cause its the weirdest sick ive ever had.

p.s. i dont want to be a awful person or excessively stupid
p.p.s i dont want to fail something
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"ARGHHH!!!
i wish i had the superpower to disappear.
but, alas, i cannot! i am but a mere mortal! and what then when a person is thrown around by life's cruel intentions? will we not drown in the depths of such madness? wail about in the clear, sticky web, spun by some egomaniacal force? are we not all hidden in this veil of mortal ignorance? we are all different--so are we not all the same? are we but dreamers in a container of liquid nitrogen--freezing in a binary machine of infinirt inferiority?! this dream is never-ending! this conversation never happened! all that exists is the english* exam! my life is nothing after the bubbles are darkened!
the caveat is the textbook--her eyes stab into the gray brain of illogical conclusions. and who then will solve life's mysteries--the reports floating in cyberspace, the news-bits in the ten-second media blitz that derives forbidden pleasure from economic meltdowns and the unforeseen destruction of foreign economic policy??are we not men and women who deny this marshmallow-world, with all of its mushy truth--its own self-absorbed bitterness that falls like a single tear, with majesty as ephemeral as a swan floating on its own reflection?!?!?!??!???
answer me! for the truth, i must know! in all of its unknowable-glory! so i can die--a happy girl!* will i not know? can i know? or will these truths forever escape me like a mink hiding in a foxhole. had we only the patience, an understanding, could we know such things--but patience does not exist. there exists nothing but single moments that live and die. and wednesday* is my epic* final.* after wednesday* will be the end of the world. but until then i exist to study. after wednesday* [or thursday?] will be the end of the world! make peace with God. make peace with nature, for the truth will set everyone free!
good day!"

p.p.p.s words followed by a star [*] may be substituted for applicable word of choice.
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p.p.p.p.s. xoxo

Posted 12/14/2004 1:55 AM