contradictions

things are contradictory.

i am contradictory too.

example: i have positively a million things to do and i know it and i really want to get them done. but i want to go eat at cracker barrel and watch a movie [a movie which is required for class eventually, but not necessarily soon]. i know better than this. mostly.

example: when i was little, and even mostly now, i knew that fairies and ghosts and the tooth fairy werent really really real. but i absolutely believe in them anyway-- i was positive that there were ghosts at the end of my grandparents street and i was terrified of them. and of course i got money from the toothfairy. and fairies are just real. the end.

example: people i know, like my family and some friends, dont mind me, even when im stupid and stuff. hum.

example: i dont believe believe in halloween, but i still dress up if i can and i like candy a lot and stuff too. [why is it exactly that we cant have both reformation and halloween?]

example: i dont like pain or unhappiness or lots of work and no sleep, but i still do stupid things which cause those unhappy things. for example [and by no means the only example [ ! ]] i detest greek and i still took 2 semesters.

example: Jesus says that he loves me. he still does no matter how stupid i am or whatever. and he loves me even though im not perfect. and stuff. "Be persuaded, timid soul, that He has loved you too much to cease loving you."

example: heaven is still true. even though the world is full of death and life is frail. and we dont deserve it one bit.
you can walk there, and breathe and find the fairies and have pinkmilkshakes and chocolate ones too all day long and probably not even get fat but if you do, it will be ok because fat will be in style.

i am glad.

Posted 11/3/2004 6:55 PM