backwards countdown (or, nashville #1)

oh, marilla, if you only knew how many things i want to say and dont. [!]
i have got to--got to--stop talking my head off. its getting ridiculous. i have been talking my head off in person, and in writing. this weekend alone i wrote 40 pages and only 10 of them were notes from a speaker of any sort. that means i have 30 pages from things in my head, or from other peoples heads, unofficially. gracious: there are so many, many things that i feel like i need to say and document and discuss that i can hardly keep up with myself. its something of a question of my head working faster than my hands. and that makes me a little sad, because who knows how many genius things that ive thought and not written down. this means that i have devoted myself to trying to write down everything i think or hear or anything else, which means i have been carrying around paper a lot. this is cumbersome, but necessary. in fact, i would be rather lost without my notebook right now, and he is the hero for like 7 minutes because i almost forgot it, but he found it. but the point is: i have been feeling the weight of words lately and i feel as though im wasting them, at least sometimes, even though i want to use them more than ever, and also if i did write it down it would take about a year, so heres a list [and even a list in downward order] of the highlights, and i will try to keep the rest of everything inside me for once.

interesting things to think of:
judaism
a linen obelisk/que
aching for an epiphany
writing backwards [!]
wasabi sauce
upstairs windows
insides of other peoples heads
stair well[s]
fufilling dreams
national fads

keywords:
self-out-of-way
listen
balance
do-somethingbe-brave
fragileness
let-someone-else-talk-for-a-while
love
allow-for-growth

muchly wonderful things:
singing
downtown nashville
making art
hanging out & relaxing
dressing up all at once
being cultured
dodgeball
helpful,
encouraging critiques

inspiring media things:
a heartbreaking work of staggering genius
night
lucky magazine
the sermon on the mount [im curious about this]
bird by bird
music. period.
seinfeldsome

quotes from weekend:
-- "no, stupid. there cant be any national fads." "well, what about blue jeans?"
-- "dont ever go 'whats wrong with you?!?'"
-- "im really lazy, so if she asks me to do something that makes me look strong, i usually dont."
-- "i cant help that im taller than you and i have to talk down."
-- "i concur, triumphantly slash abundantly"
-- "dance dance, burn baby burn, all night long, in bed."

generally goodness:
fountains of chocolateness [and bananas]
dancing
unlostness
laughing. a lot.
not being hated [and being taken care of]

boys who tried to kill me:
the DMV bullrider
the waving-non-paying-attention driver
crazy nashville [or bucksnort] men
j.b. on the dodgeball court

everyone should:
maintain eye contact
smell pleasant [like boy or girl, whichever is appropriate]
laugh at jokes

favorite new words:
legislatrix
tautology

genius moment of the night:
figuring out the word game

currently playing [among other things]:sugar we're going down [swinging] // falloutboy [because sugar makes me smile muchly]

Posted 10/16/2005 11:57 PM